I used it for all time ...

I used during this time all the means at my disposal to return to their former comfortable state of mind. Sat on a diet to lose weight, then gained it back. Regularly went to the pool, swam a half mile per session, but temporary relief, which is felt after the swim, quickly disappeared. Painful thoughts darkened my mood and did not work distractions, even on vacation. All of what I owned in their vision of family life, and I had by then built a new relationship, it was the experience of a family in which I grew up and my first marriage, which lasted sixteen years. Expectations that I have endowed their loved one did not come true, and I found it increasingly difficult to take these do not match expectations with reality. Bumping into the misunderstanding and feeling at this sad feelings, I wondered why I had all been very different. Accumulated destructive anger, which translate into tears or showdown. I could not even clearly express in words and explain their mood, suggesting that man can guess how I feel bad. It becomes even more bitter. If occasionally I have heard from friends, depression and despair were heard in my words, and sad eyes betrayed my depression. Outwardly, my life seemed all happy and arranged. Could not see the pain I carried in my heart, as if she had settled in me hacking abscess. Therefore, to share experiences and tell someone else about how bad I did not want to. Prolonged depression kept my nerves a hot, sore and stuck with me mercilessly. In the cycle of life, it became increasingly difficult to resist the attack. I tried to adapt to the circumstances in which provided, used to do their full potential and desire to survive. I'm not sitting in the saddle, managing your time, and frantically try to keep him by the tail and dragged along the dusty road of their feelings. Losing strength and tearing the soul, I had almost come to terms with their situation and stuck in negative feelings. Changes in my life was just at the very moment when it seemed that there was no way out. I met people who helped to look at life differently. Taught in a different way to think and perceive reality in a different way to treat yourself and others, thereby healing not only of spiritual but of physical pain. Getting rid of suffering, understanding their underlying cause, I get an invaluable opportunity to come back without injuries in the past, and without fear to look into the future. Comprehending the course of life, understanding of what the images lined up my dead-end situation, I was able to review many of their mistakes and errors. Dropped out on my share of serious car accident that served as a catalyst, clarifying to the end of the full value of human life. I have not had years to recover and painfully suffer physically and mentally. Shake, that happened to me, helped to find the shortest way way to overcome the difficulties in a very short period of time.