And then I started calling him less and less. And one morning at the medical conference reported as coming out of a difficult situation: received thoraco-abdominal stab wound - this is where the knife had been damaged abdominal organs and diaphragm (thoraco-abdominal obstruction), and pleura. I used to conceive and did not dare to myself - no boss to go for such an operation. He (my boss) is very experienced and intelligent surgeon. And the first time I got myself to the table in the operating room and did everything myself (I was the senior surgeon on duty in the duty medical team), together with another surgeon (he is younger than me). So when I reported on the morning of the conference, suddenly felt that the boss of mine does and does not rejoice in the fact that I did not call at night for an operation. I felt it at the conference, and then clearly felt in the follow their work. Chef started irritating me in the morning - on a circuit in the intensive care unit where we all searched the very sick - and the toy did not do so and so. and drainage, they say, is not it and not standing there, and destination need to change, and the antibiotic is not one that needs appointed. And bypassing the department was already not the one that had happened before. I was in pets and suddenly ceased to be such. overnight. I decided then: "Ah so! In general, I'll show you what I can do without you. "And he began to continue to perform the most complex operation, not even calling him on the phone. And soon became the chief of" deprive "me." Stopped giving me a self-elective surgery, so fall to pinpoint - herniotomy there, or close stoma. But no resection or hemicolectomy or operations in the hepatobiliary zone - he did not give me to do. That's it. He used me, my "medical thinking" put an example to other doctors' offices, in every way Underscoring how quickly I am growing as a professional. And then how to crop. It acted on me unchitozhayusche. I felt humiliated and insulted. I think that will go away. But in spite of the fact that a great city and a lot of hospitals - in any case, any zavotdeleniem before you take me to work still call my boss. And that means ... Even though you cry. And, despite everything, I have great respect for his boss and are large - the teacher. After all, he patiently taught me everything and coach as a coach wolf cub. It certainly - a trained doctor and a brilliant surgeon. But one must - as vzelsya at me. Perhaps you will tell me - what to do? "
How to get rid of their own and others' fears
First, if you something is wrong, we must boldly admit that. One of the most unfortunate of ways to cope with the fact that interfere with life - is to ignore its own internal problems. This method of response: not to allow the consciousness of their own psychological problems - very typical of the men who make up a significant minority of visitors to psychological counseling. Sometimes it seems that a man is easier to just die than admit that to him that something is wrong - both to himself and others. So, firstly, do not close their eyes to their problems, try to understand.
No comments:
Post a Comment